Kevin's Dead Cat

After surgery sliced off an entire tumor and 1/3 of my tongue, plus six weeks of radiation therapy, I've been re-learning how to eat, drink, and talk with my newly re-constructed tongue and coping with side effects. But the cancer came back and I don't know what's going to happen next.

My Photo
Location: Los Angeles, California, United States

I don't want life to imitate art. I want life to be art.

Friday, December 31, 2004

2004 in Review

Progress from August to December
That first photo still cracks me up.

What a rollercoaster year! I attended three memorial services, lost my sense of taste, sat through Baz Luhrmann's "La Boheme", the family dog passed away, three of my friends are getting divorced, and (last but not least) was diagnosed with cancer three days before my birthday!

But I also had the best meal of my life at Noé, lost over 1/3 of my body weight, made a lot of new friends, grew closer to old ones, gained two beautiful newborn cousins (one born on my birthday), and moved back Downtown into a great space.

Getting sick was terrible, there's no denying that. But everyone and everything that wouldn't have happened were it not for the cancer, I wouldn't give back or change for anything.

Most days, I can honestly say that I would rather be me with cancer than anyone else without cancer. I mean, Donald Trump may have a hit TV show, billions of dollars, and a hot fiancé. But he doesn't have James, Marycruz, Ali, Allan, Adam, Big Eric, Little Eric, John, Tim, Mike, René, the Hawks, Silvia, Agnieszka, Sol, Evelyn, Lane, Leannah, Tom, Rose, Allegra, Paul, Noah, Dr. McNicoll, Dr. Blackwell, Maria, Paula, my family, and new friends who've e-mailed me through Kevin's Dead Cat this past year.

I guess that's the epiphany I've been waiting for: my family and my friends are the best, and I can face anything, even cancer, as long as they're around.

And a big Thank You to those who've helped me get through the year, though we've never met: Philip K. Dick, Haruki Murakami, Hayden Carruth, Henry Miller, Leonard Cohen, Jacques Lacan, Umberto Eco, Hunter S. Thompson, Jon Stewart, Eddie Izzard, Chris Rock, Nick Cave, Tom Waits, John Coltrane, Johnny Hartman, Dave Brubeck, Paul Desmond, Lou Reed, Al Green, Ravi Shankar, Johnny Cash, Chet Baker, The Flaming Lips, Radiohead, Steve Jones, Natalie Merchant, Glenn Gould, Cocteau Twins, Ina Garten, Rachel Ray, Todd English, Robert Gadsby, Anthony Bourdain, Meng Tzu, Wong Kar Wai, Anh Hung Tran, Jørgen Leth, Peter Jackson, John Luri, Edward Norton & Brad Pitt, Johnny Depp & Benicio del Toro, Matt Damon, and Maggie Cheung.

Here's to the end of 2004, and making damn sure that 2005 is the best year ever.


Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hi. It's Amy. Of "Amy's birthday in Vegas" fame. (I really got a kick out of seeing a link for that phrase in your latest entry.) I'm cleaning out my e-mail inbox and I found this e-mail John sent me with the link to your blog, which he told me about months ago and I requested and I let sit there forever as I tried to get the courage to click on it. I guess seeing y ou for "the first time" last Wednesday made me realize what a complete idiotic wimp I was being and that you're better than fine, you're a superwoman who at least deserves to have me read her blog and find out what the hell it was all like, for god's sake. So I did. And I didn't tear up at all (I cry at car commercials) until I read your 2004 In Review, which wasn't scary at all but thankful and made me see that you came through it all with a lot of love and support. I would have gladly offered mine, but I understand your not wanting people to know. Can't believe on my birthday you were already scheduled for surgery. I'm proud of you and happy at how things turned out. Best of everything in 2005 Laura; you deserve it. P.S. You WERE drunk last week! :)

January 17, 2005 2:28 PM  
Blogger clowny said...

Stop! You're making ME tear-up.

Now that I'm no longer hiding out (I even started bartending at Cole's again) we should join forces and get Ali to take us to Las Vegas soon.

I hope I'm sober the next time I see you, so I can give you a BIG HUG.


January 17, 2005 9:50 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I hear what you say ... but ...

food health organic store is what it is about? am I right?

food health organic store, food health organic store, food health organic store, but i had to look here health organic store because no-one had the answer!

October 22, 2005 4:03 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Great Blog! I also have a site about chocolate society
. You can check it out at chocolate society

Also, as a thank you for visiting my site, I'd like to tell you about a great site that is giving away a FREE DVD Camcorder! Just click the following link and enter your Zipcode to see if the promotion is available in your area!

FREE DVD Camcorder

October 26, 2005 12:17 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I found your blog on custom motorcycle fenders while searching the web and wanted to tell you it is great. Feel free to have your participants view custom motorcycle fenders for more great ideas.

November 22, 2005 4:13 AM  

Post a Comment

<< Home