Scared

Yesterday, I made the mistake of looking at photos of tongue tumors on the Internet. There are two suspicious looking lumps underneath my tongue. I don't remember if they were always there, or what. I'm still in pain. I started taking codeine again.

I called Dr. McNicoll this morning and spoke to RN Anthony since he's in surgery all day today. I asked if it was possible that two tumors would suddenly surface so soon after radiation therapy ends. He said it's very unlikely, but took down an extensive message for me. I hope I'm overreacting. At the very least I scored a refill on my codeine prescription.

Eric got back from Chile this week. He came to the bar last night. Depending on what the doctors say about my tongue, we may go to Vietnam together next month. I didn't tell him about the suspicious lumps on my tongue, just that I may fly into Hanoi sooner than planned. The thing is, he wants to go to Ho Chi Minh City, which is in the south. I want to spend the first 4-5 days kayaking, swimming, and camping around Ha Long Bay, then chill around the historic section of Hanoi. I may even detour to Angkor Wat in Cambodia before flying home. But Eric really isn't interested in the north. I may end up going by myself after all.