Kevin's Dead Cat

After surgery sliced off an entire tumor and 1/3 of my tongue, plus six weeks of radiation therapy, I've been re-learning how to eat, drink, and talk with my newly re-constructed tongue and coping with side effects. But the cancer came back and I don't know what's going to happen next.

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I don't want life to imitate art. I want life to be art.

Saturday, April 09, 2005


I mentioned earlier that Allegra is getting me in touch with specialists in alternative health who helped her friend's mother through stage III ovarian cancer. I took a look at one of their websites this morning.

I've never been skeptical of alternative medicine. A friend in college contracted HIV back in the early 90s. She swore by holistic medicine, and as far as I knew, never developed AIDS. And I always felt it was a dreadful idea to blast a body with radiation to make them healthier. Nevermind that it didn't help me.

But I also say things like, "Heard of it. Never saw it. Sounds like bullshit to me."

The prospect of being treated by something called "BioConscious Medicine" gives me pause. I love science, technology and modern convenience, and how walking down congested city streets makes me feel hyperconscious and powerful. I don't like how buying organic foods, substituting green tea for my lovely espresso, and daily meditation make me feel so fragile.

I'm not in danger of becoming a hippie and opening an ashram in Venice Beach. I just miss feeling so young and strong that I can take my health for granted.


Blogger sunsetandalvarado said...

Laura, hello, Dr. Blackwell did my surgery in Oct.'03. Flap surgery, cut the tongue, replaced the jaw, removed some teeth, I talk funny, I can't eat spagetti, etc. etc. I found your site while researching a healing problem (too much radiation) I'm having after they removed my hardware from my jaw, three loose screws. So much in common, Tom Waits, downtown, green tea, regular workouts, my taste buds are fried, thanks for your journal, my friends, your friends, a sense of humor, German beer, Tuesday at Dr. Blackwell's, doesn't he play his cards close to the vest? Thanks for including me in your trip. Chuck

April 11, 2005 12:38 AM  
Blogger clowny said...

Thanks for your post, Chuck. It's always nice to hear from a fellow "traveller."

All my best wishes are going your way.


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